The aduser called me last night. I was told he was calling to offer to pay for the service dog, my extra clothing I had to buy to fit over the brace, for PT and pool therapy and the hearing aid if I need it.

He spat out vile things and told me it's MY fault hit me. I hung up on him and was triggered all night. Never again. I was hoping a peaceful settlement could be reached, but no one will ever convince me to answer that phone again. I am thinking of having my number changed but hate to because my Mom will be totally confused as will I.

I checked with the Volence counselor yesterday for the victim's recovery fund. I was so afraid to talk to him but he was very nice. He is sending information and some forms to fill out and return to him.

I also talked with one of the people who train the service dogs. She recommended a young female Bichon, but they are difficult to find from rescue shelters. I sent several pms to rescue organizations last night and one very kind lady has written back to me and told me most are males who mark their territories and have potty training issues. She said the breed as a whole has potty training probs. That won't work. They also cost $300 and the training is $300. There is no way I can afford that.

After last night I am afraid to go outside my door or even stay inside my apartment. I know the trigger will wear off in time, but how long will it take? He drives a big semi and I'm afraid he's going to run over me. It sounds irrational, but he could do it and say it's my fault and I'd be dead.

Thank you for listening. Thank you for caring and thank you for for being you.

Hugs,

Jan