I almost cried when I saw your post because I am feeling so down about how unable I am to function at school and work. I am currently working on my masters in a helping profession related degree and this makes it even more challenging. I got into this profession because in some way I wanted to help people, just like people have helped me. I feel sometimes I do a wonderful job because "I get it" because I live it and have fought tooth and nail to be able to manage my illness, but at times no matter how hard I fight, things become unmanageable at times and the depression always creeps in and immobilizes me. I always feel like, after all these years I should know how to manage these depression periods, but I am so lost and self defeating that I am starting to really be critical of myself. Earlier tonight when going through one of my depressive episodes. my husband told me I need to "just go run on the treadmill." as if running will automatically stop my depression (although it does help.) When I responded that it wasn't that simple, he became angry. I told him that I didn't need him to fix it, I just wanted him not to be critical, and he said "well it needs to be fixed and you haven't fixed it yet." I cried all night and feel more alone than ever, and this just played into my self defeating guilt. Ahhhh!!! Any similar experiences with loved ones?