Feeling so low everyday.. I feel so alone. I have a million thoughts racing through my head constantly and they are all really muddled and confused. 2 months since 9 year relationship ended. I can't begin to describe how I'm really feeling.. The only way I found I could cope was by busying myself and ignoring all my emotions.. Just pretended I felt empty.. When ppl ask how I'm feeling I say I'm fine.. Really I feel like if I try to say how I feel il completely fall apart. So so much pain. I want someone to talk to I want someone to hold me and let me cry.. Really cry. But hold me so I don't fall apart.. I don't know how to cope anymore. Iv reached my limit of sadness. I want to run away from my life