..thats ok...

it's just I never 'really' see myself as needing needs met....or never saw it!

or something?

I've been gettin' through life thinking and believing that my needs were to fulfill others needs..

I was always asked and manipulated when I was young ..to conform to those around me...so I have been annoyingly very much programmed to seek approval....to even get scraps of validation...

so it's as if my needs were to satisfy others to get that "i'm ok then"...

but so often I would break down and fight back...but no-one was and never is ready for it!...the complete malfunction and abuse they get from me...

I don't reckon I ever asked for nuthin!...to busy doin' whats been asked of me..

so in this recent emotional blowout with my ex....that you suggested "my needs are unmet"

yes that has had an impact on me

many many therapists and so forth could have saved me hundreds of hours if they just let me see that perhaps..
it's a very important and new thing for me...I could go on and on....but that'll do..

thanku again M