So yesterday I had a really bad day. The whole day is a blur of crying and struggling to get from morning to evening. Then in the evening I was better.

Here is the thing. So I had two completely crazy episodes yesterday. It was while driving. I was screaming, like literally screaming and crying. I didn't SI (Hurray!) But I was not in a good place. That was on the way to work. I struggled the whole day in this cloud of mental torment. Then it happened again on the way to my OB. Well, I got there and I was a mess and it turned out I had the wrong day for my appointment so I had to reschedule.

When I got to the car I was better. Then I went home and the horrible nightmare I thought was waiting for me was not. Things were better than normal.

It got me thinking about how earlier there was a post about how maybe episodes like this are some sort of seizure. It's like once I got it out I was better? Or I evened out? Or something... Does anyone else notice this? I've been thinking about it and I've noticed it before, too. It is like a volcano. Like the pressure built up and then explodes and then it is this eerie calm...