He's always trying to drug me! I hear ya on the cutting likewater, i'm also a reformed cutter as you call it. I'm not sure how I stopped. I just knew I had to stop. It was a struggle the first year, but now I'm not really compelled to do it. Sometimes that girl voice in my head tells me to do it, but she only gets through when my brain is already starting to go. I quit cutting and drinking at the same time, maybe there's a connection there?

Its ok not telling T today. Although I have my appt in an hour and now I don't want to!!!!

On a lighter note, last night I was feeling hurt by my bf (he said I should lay off the chips and dip, i assumed he was calling me fat) but anyways, this voice I don't know, it was a female, a teenager i think, told me to crush the chips and throw them across the room. I did. My bf was not too happy. BEWARE THE CHIP CRUSHER!!!!