I suppose that could be the case. I always assume that I'm in the wrong because I don't have a grasp on the mechanics and concepts, and that they must see something that I don't or can't. ~ Michael

You are truely not alone in this area Michael as far as trying to understand the mechanics and concepts and as I know that you don't want to touch on the area of what you have disclosed what you are, but perhaps some of your confusion might be yourself basing on that disorder/whatever.

But I assure you that it is a confusing area no matter what personal issue someone has. So it is a good question to present. It is making me think because I do know the difference, but I struggle to define it verbally. And I don't mean to bring up your personal issue in a negetive way. But I have to think about how you describe what you can and cannot do, and it can be challenging intellectually to explain certain things to you. But I actually like the challenge because it forces me to examine intellect over emotionality. Which is the productive solution anyway.