Update:

Have an appointment with a solicitor tomorrow at 2pm. My CPN will collect me and take me there.

Having some real trouble waking up and staying awake. Slept twelve hours so far today.

My mother and I both discussed "options" and she cried. We both realise we're running out of them. My mother brought it up. We're not in any danger, we just discussed it. I can't help thinking it would give us a voice. The notes from us both. Letter to be read at the service, one to be read at the inquest, an open letter to the press. Someone in authority would finally listen, would be forced to listen, and then maybe this wouldn't happen to anyone else.

Anyway, that's something to ponder more when the solicitor says there's nothing we can do, and we write letters to the press who don't respond. So many people who ought to know that their actions are likely to put us in that kind of danger, are carrying out those actions regardless. It's why I keep looking at that Protection from Harassment thing.

For an authority and a landlord to make allegations of a mother and daughter, which can result in the loss of their family home, and deny them the opportunity to defend themselves in any way whatsoever. To disregard their testimony and that of their employers, and that of their other neighbours and friends. Two women who have already suffered tragedy in such a way that they're much more likely to commit those same actions in the face of an impossible situation.

Isn't that harassment?

*sighs* I'd better make sure I know where the Samaritans number is... just in case.