I'm just torn apart really. Already dealing with such bad anxiety and depression, depersonalization, etc she left me. When I thought she'd always be there. I'm making good steps to get where I need to be in my life and she just isn't having it. She sends mixed signals. One day she "needs" me the next she just flat out wants to move on. I'm finished though I can't keep living like that. It seemed like everything I did was to try and please her I guess you could say. Because I knew if I lost her I'd be devastated like I am now. She was the only person I turned too for so long so yeah I mean it sucks. Most of my friends disappeared so I'm trying to re connect and just find myself again without her. Just gonna take some time. Thanks for listening!