Hello & Welcome, Littlebearbear!
- declining general health
- stomach ulcer
- marital infidelity & associated relationship turmoil
- lack of support (no one to talk to)
- inability to concentrate
- intrusive thoughts
- suicidal thoughts
- being overwhelmed
- the holidays and associated stresses
That's a soup with lots of nasty ingredients. With so much hitting you all at once I believe you may need to locate practical support. Does your situation permit seeking some sort of assistance or counsel (for example,
2-1-1 in the US)?
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.