Hi silver queen.

I think it was good of you to move out of the house. If a relationship is not going well, it usually the best to move out of the house with that person.

I don't want to discourage you from taking medications, so that's not my point here. But I have noticed from my own life and reading forums that only a select few really find big benefits from anti-depressants. Perhaps it's an idea to do other things besides medications, such as therapy (as you're considering), self-help, and/or exercise.

The thing is with medications, they will make you feel better (hopefully) on the inside. When that happens, you still have your old life but with better (less-depressed) feelings. That's great of course, if it happens. But the good thing about self-help is that you change things on the outside (meet new people, set attainable goals, try new activities). So by doing self-help or CBT therapy, you change on the inside and outside. You start to feel better, also because your outside life is changing. That's why I like self-help so much: you create your own better new life.

I've tried medications for years, talked to a couple of psychiatrists, but nothing really worked. I don't know if this is exactly your situation, but just be careful to put all your hope on just one solution: medications.

When I did self-help, some therapy, and exercise together I got much better results. I felt better on the inside, and my outside life was changing too and so I felt proud of what I achieved.

Anyway, I think it's a good idea to find a good CBT therapist. And if you have the energy, add some self-help books and exercise, and I'm quite sure you'll start to feel better. (amazon.com is a good place to search for self-help books).

Well take care and I hope you start to feel better in the future.