If you truly can't find it in you to trust him, then perhaps you guys should take a break for an undetermined amount of time. My ex-partner cheated on my 2 and half years into our relationship, and a year and a half later, I'm only over it now. These things take time, and they're so painful to sift through because you have to face it every day, but by the sounds of things, you need you time. A chance to revaluate (again) what you need from the relationship and if it's worth the current pain you're feeling right now. Only you can make the decision if you choose to stay with him.
I really hope you discover the best outcome for you, and you find what you need. All the best. 
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“For a long time I believed the opposite of passion was death. I was wrong. Passion and death are implicit, one in the other. Past the border of a fiery life lies the netherworld. I can trace this road, which took me through places so hot the very air burned the lungs. I did not turn back. I pressed on, and eventually passed over the border, beyond which lies a place that is wordless and cold, so cold that it, like mercury, burns a freezing blue flame.”
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia
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