I feel like you do at times but I know what my issue is "LOVE YOURSELF,"....You haft to start living life for yourself...do things to improve your situation...Exercise...talk to someone you trust with how you feel maybe you don't express yourself enough...A girlfriend and everything else will come once you obtain your happiness with yourself...a woman don't establish your happiness...if you are not happy with yourself..that would cause you to lean on that person for your happiness and you could find yourself in a even worse situation so BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF FIRST....