I really think you should seek help (can't sleep/drift threw the day) sound like you are depressed and don't know it. But one thing i can say is don't look for happiness through a person because you will always be let down...Look for happiness from within. When you are happy with the person you are then it's easy to share emotions with others. That is something i have been getting over myself (looking for happiness threw a person). I am loving myself now and working on me so i can be a better person. I think that is alot of people issue looking for happiness through others and not yourself...I hope this helps out alot...