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Originally Posted by Howlin Mad
I have a lot going on with me, and half the time I want to tell my tutors, especially when I've had a bad day. But on a bad day, I don't want to talk at all, and on a good day, I feel stupid for bothering them. My friend is at uni, and she never seems to have a problem letting her tutors know she self harms, or some other stuff that goes on, but the most I've told mine is that I was on medication that was really bad for me and screwed up a few weeks, but I'm on something new and trying to catch up.
I don't know what to do. I mean, I tell them I'm worried about the exams, they go "exam nerves", but if I don't do well, I'm not going to be very good to myself.
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Hey
Howlin Mad... 
Sorry you are struggling with school right now. I understand the feeling you have - you want to confess to someone that some days are hard at school, you see others struggling yet seemingly able to open up, and do want support/positive feedback as you progress through your classes. I also understand the impression you have of the *one possible* tutor that may be more compassionate...I have been there too (and am still there as i am still in school too; thanx btw, for reminding me of how extensive this struggle can be
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At the same time, i do agree with others that say that you need to go to your treatment team to ask for more support. Right now at university, on top of T and Pdoc, i do also see someone at school specifically to deal with academic stress. That is the person i am connected with to unload hard days at school, issues about deadlines, and worries about my progress overall. It does sound like you would like something similar...but i don't know if the tutor would be enough to fulfill your needs.
Others have brought up if you are aware of the many responsibilities of university. I do agree with these comments simply because there IS A LOT MORE THAT IS IMPORTANT compared to high school. It is okay if you cannot handle it all - in a sence that it is a learning process that each of us has to go through to advocate for ourselves, be confident in our strengths and skills, and complete MANY MORE necessary tasks (assignments/papers/projects/tests/exams) well in preparation for more future work. I hope you are successful in your search to get more of the support YOU need to continue to be STABLE & WELL in school...
