I have lost so many friends from suicide. Recently my best friend invited me to a party at his house. We were all having a great time. Then he asked me to come with him cause he had to tell me something. So we went into the restroom, shut the door and then he looked at me with his teary eyes and i asked him what was wrong. He looked at me and said Hannah just remember I love you and will protect you. He then killed himself, I couldnt stop him, I could have done more to help him. He lay bleeding lying in my arms. I just want to be with him again, I need to be with him again. The only way is to die. I cant stand to deal with the pain, the tourture of seeing him lying there dead everytime i close my eyes. Everything in my like is gone. Im gone.