Bless your heart. That feeling is so hard to carry inside. I had a very abusive H who called me ugly and tons of other very bad things that went along with that. I understand how it is hard emotionally to be around other females who we see as being what we want to be.

The thing about it though is that we are all different. You have things about you that your T will never have. You have qualities that she will never have. Some of those qualities may be things she sees in you which make her jeleous even.