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hi lonely,

it sounds like you are feeling very isolated and somewhat depressed. also, you say that in your group of friends, they are all nice people who make a group. Yet, you go on to say they call you annoying and fail to invite you to events. which is it? because it cannot be that both statements are true. if they call you annoying and ignore you by failing to invite you to group events, how is it that they are nice people who along with you function as a great group? I am just trying to repeat what you said, so you can see where your comments contradict one another. also, you feel ignored in regards to your fellow cheerleaders' failure to support your accomplishments. I do see where you question whether or not they may be jealous of you for being skinny, short and seemingly very secure whereas they are not. it sounds like, for whatever reason, you are feeling alone and isolated. did something recently happen in your life that changed things? because, your need to come home and cry daily seem to be depression. how severe I cannot say from your post. I think you should talk to someone about how you are feeling. perhaps the school counselor if your parents are not an option. otherwise, you may decide you need to see a therapist to figure out why you feel this way. once you figure out why you feel this way, you will be more able to determine why you feel ignored by your friends and your cheer leading peers. I strongly suggest you speak to someone soon. Also, if you look in the phone book in the green or blue pages in front, there are numbers for crisis hotlines you can call to talk to someone from home while ou are feeling down. Sorry, but I do not know of a particular hotline for ou to call.

Any ways, I wish you well and send you my support. I hope you find the peace you are looking for . it is no fun feeling isolated and depressed. please do not prolong your suffering by keeping this to yourself. good luck. take care and be well.


Sloane