Good luck tomorrow Miner. My advice is not to hold back telling your new pdoc what's going on with you and see what he has to say. Ask questions too, think about some things to ask before you go. That is a good way to get a feel for if you are going to like him or not.
Anyway, Jesus Christ is my hero for sure. After Jesus I would also have to say my dad. I can see in his eyes he has the same pains emotionally like I do. He served in the Air Force in Vietnam, married my mom and adopted her baby, worked hard and provided for his family, and he can do things like have a big garden and household repairs. He is like a real life superhero, my heart breaks for him because he has never had any professional help for mental/emotional disturbances. I hope he doesn't suffer too much, he deserves better than that.