Hey there,

I have OCD so I understand those obsessive thoughts. I think they are more obsessive thoughts than fetishes, as you don't really get aroused by them anymore. And you are not a pedophile, unless you have had sex with kids or are aroused by sex with kids. It is an obsessive fear. My pdoc always told me, you obsess about only things that bother you and go against who you really are. For example, you don't obsess that you are going to brush your teeth. There is no fear there, no anxiety. And OCD is an anxiety disorder. Wishing you the best.