*hugstightly* Nemo...aww it's ok. I understand where you are. Sorry you're having a rough time. Wish I had the right words to say...just anything to help you get through the night. Please try your best not to do anything too drastic. I know your SI is your safety net, but I don't want you to endanger yourself. Try doing some distractions...anything that will keep your mind occupied on something other than SI. It can be hard, but it isn't impossible. *hugs* again...take care. I'm here if you need a friend 8)