I feel down! The holidays are supposed to be a happy time of year...aren't they? Money is tighter this year than it has ever been and the extra stress of holiday spending is only serving to make things worse. People have expectations...and even if they don't...I am my own worst enemy anyway! I already feel less than valuable as a human being, not being able to provide a super Christmas experience for my son is making me feel even more rotten! Everyday is a struggle to get out of bed, my house is a disaster...dishes are piled...laundry hampers are full...the hair balls rolling about my floors are getting bigger than the cats themselves and my dog just looks at me with these sad eyes..."what no walk again today"??? I've lost 50 pounds since the 1st of September and although I have a lot more to lose...it has been easy so far because I lack the basic desire to eat. I find it difficult to stuff in enough calories a day just to meed my basic nutritional requirements. I just don't have any will... or desire...I feel like I am worthless! I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Saturday...I wonder what he will have to say about all of this?