When I first met her a year and a half ago, I stopped her from commiting suicide, I didn't know I'd done it till this year, but I had stopped her, I made her truly happy.

But recently her parents divorce and Christmas and everything is getting to her, she seems okay one minute, then the second she hears a depressing song, or see's her lighter/blade thats it, she goes into some trance, and it completely takes over her, I try to remind her of the good things, to calm her and convince her to cuddle me (I live in England, she lives in America, I get her to cuddle the pillow and it ALWAYS stops her urges) but nothing works, as soon as she see's it or hears the music, she's not herself.. it's like it posesses her.. it's takes over her and she starts to forget everything, her love, her happiness.. it just goes.. I don't know what to do. I stay there and I do what I can afterwards, I spend as much time as possible to calm her down and bring her back to me, to release the control it has over her. I just don't know what I can do, I asked her if she could hide them, if she could try not to listening to any songs like that, but as soon as it comes across her mind, or something makes her upset and she doesn't talk to me about it, thats it. Game over.

She takes her light and blades with her incase she "needs" them, I explain why she doesnt, but she doesn't listen, she can't shake the feelign that even though I'm there to talk to her about it, how I'm all she needs, she stills thinks that she needs it. I tell her all the thing she can do to distract herself, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I just don't know what to do..

Please help.
Samuel