Without meds, I manage and fail and ride a seriously crazy roller coaster of emotions...with meds I manage and fail and ride a crazy roller coaster of emotions...The ride's just not as crazy...I ask myself all the time if I really NEED this chemical cocktail...then I remember my many stays in hospital (usually following a brief NO MEDICATION episode) and am smacked back into the reality that I have an illness that I didn't ask for but live with and if I want to have the best experience that life has to offer me...perhaps I should stick to what helps and just try to function as best I can...given my crappy circumstances! We are all different with a range of functionality...but I have to ask...how great is life for an unmedicated diabetic? How easily can a paraplegic get around without his wheelchair? As much as I hate my medication...I am still here fighting to make it through each and every day...I think the meds make it easier for the most part...side effects aside...I have been places I don't ever want to go again thanks to my illness.