Oh I want to say one more thing that I just remembered. Before my current pdoc, my old pdoc told me the rules were that if I ever abuse any medication he prescribed me, he would terminate the treatment. I have a history of overdosing, so it worried me at first, if I was going to mess up... But it actually helped prevent me from doing it, because I didn't want to stop seeing my pdoc. He isn't my pdoc anymore though, not for that reason, but because he retired to take care of his mother. Anyway... just wanna put another side to it, that sometimes it can be motivation to be better like in that case.