what if? then you would be me.

do what i do...be yourself..develop what you like & enjoy...develop a strong network of friends...they that are now my family...i am blessed now with an incredible loving family that i have created...

a family is just a group of people that you are born into. it is nice iff they love you & you fit in & that they are good loving decent people. not everyone has this. i certainly didn't. from a child i knew i was different from my parents. i strove even as a kid to be everything & anything opposite they were...

you can do it...it's not easy but trust me...

as for home...it is where you make it. i have lived some places temporarily (due to jobs, etc) that were "home" while my home was never home. the place i am living in now & have been for 16 years, is nice, ok, but it has never felt like "home" to me.

i have a brother & sister...i have not had any contact with them in over 20 years. don't know if they are alive or dead. it's sad. their choice not mine. for many years i was easy to find due to my workplace & now with the internet you can find anyone if you have the time & skill. i could do the same for them but they are toxic...& i really have no need or desire to locate them & let them back into my life. on certain days i do think about them but that is about as far as it gets...i wonder if they do the same for me...altho my sister was homeless & schizophrenic last i heard & my brother ..was robbing banks .

so...make your own family...create your own sense of family. make your own traditions...involve others. soon they will become your own legend.