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Old Dec 15, 2011, 12:03 PM
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Originally Posted by Lexi232 View Post
Something worries me here. I tried to not say it. but I am not the only one worried (a few inside are getting angry because I wont say it). When you say she "has" you say a lot of things that you dont know what to even say. Can you clarify?
Does she suggest things? does she put words in your mouth? ... even if she's doing that, and you feel its accurate, it should come from you first.. she could be able to help and give advice as to how to find the right words, but not actually "guessing" or describing you to you when you are in such a suggestive state....
This kind of thing can make it rough on you, and your others.
We are not geting on to you, or getting mad at you, we are trying to say something that in the only way we can.
Because by T's and pdocs, or even close friends suggestion something or putting words in your mouth when you can't say it yourself, and being in such a suggestive state (vulnerable state; confused state; willing to please state; willing to listen state; etc...) ... it can cause some problems, even create problems for you. If that's what she's doing (or he), then I would guess they aren't trying to hurt you at all, but are trying to help you, though they are not fully aware of how powerful the suggestion or thought of suggestion may be...
There are some cases (as i just was reading up on it some) known for where the T or even the person who intentionally was the source of the past pain would intentionally cause what was known as Multiple persononality and split personalities at this time that it was happening.
Now there are some "unconfirmed" cases since its unsure if DID is more popular due to the awareness of it, or due more in therapy and such.. but i believe it's proly just like anything else, the due to more in therapy and more awareness both. People had it before i'm guessing, but no one knew to diagnose them correctly. Or they remained undiagnosed because that's how the person themselves wanted it to be.
But theres the unconfirmed reports of how therapy lately has caused a "hysteria" (outbreak, mass diagnoses's, etc.) in DID cases. Because therapist were unintentionally causing the patients to split in their way of therapy. (this is one reason why i stay from reading much up on DID because i do not want the suggestiveness, even though some of me is fine the rest of me is very insecure and very much in the suggestive state, and i dont want something to happen just because we read about it. so we keep it to a minimum. tho we do want to know if its just us or others are out there like us a lot.
Hold on, let me google it again and see what it was called exactly that they called this term...
I believe this is it "
Iatrogenesis"

woah thats big!! xD!! thats a copy and paste, sorry about that. but also we found that on here. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissoci...ntity_disorder

If you are in a stable place and want to do some reading, i've been finding Wikipedia a good place, atleast for physical medical issues. Not so sure about mental health issues. But this is a section into each of the dissociation disorders, and i believe they go into even more if you click on their names.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_disorder



yeah when in therapy and we are discussing certain things...that go really deeply into reverting back into a child again...she usually helps me out with talking...even though there is a part of me that feels she cant talk due to the intense fear and anger related to such events...sometimes its like she knows how to call out someone else and she knows that they will respond rather quickly to what she has to say about what it was i was saying in the first place...i dunno if i am making this more clear or more confusing...i feel like i am making this more confusing...and i apologize for this...i know that i am on the verge of mentally cracking...and as far as researching anything about DID...i know that my pdoc here at home has it set in his mind the things i endure on a regular basis are as such...but at the same time...we have attempted to argue with him because part of me doesnt want this...we dont wanna know anything about it...we feel we alreeady have heard enough...the T i had in richmond...reall helped me sort out some of the others that i knew of off hand...she made this awesome statement...that i resembled to her something like a spectrum...looking at all the different colors and hues of the rainbow...which i just thoroughly enjoyed hearing at that time...because i know i have a colorful personality...and i seldom enjoy the colors in which i hold deep down inside...i just went on a tangent and prolly confused you even more...well i am honestly confused myself...i will take a look at these sites...and try to gain some sort of insight in these areas...i really do enjoy that about me...i have a lot of insight...sometimes though it seems so frustrating...and at other times...it helps so much...well i really hope this didnt confuse you further...i am not sure if it did or didnt...i want you to know that i am not all here currently and i just keep writing until it gets quiet...and it seems to hardly ever be quiet anymore...so what i am saying is i am sorry...

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