Dark Heart...what is it that you love about this man? I want to make sure that is really is love that you feel and not fear of abandonment or of being alone. I'm not sure that I could love someone I didn't trust and who made me feel this bad this often. I've been in your shoes...not for the same reasons, but because I was with someone who didn't treat me as well as I really should have been treated. I didn't end the relationship because I said "But, I love him." Now, ten years later, I realize that I really didn't want to go through the pain of missing him or starting something new or of being alone. Ironcially, he and I stayed friends...he reminisces about our relationship and has even suggested that he has never felt the same about anyone since me....but, guess what? I did end the relationship, I dealt with the loneliness and getting back into the dating scene. When he brings up stuff like that...I feel totally confused because I don't have the same thoughts at all...I'm sure I love him as a person, but not the way I thought I did when I was in fear of losing something.