Timeo your post strikes to the very heart of me the screaming voices saying it is my fault...it's all my fault...knowing that i am a worthless piece of bbot scum...but...I am trying to learn to say it isn't my fault...I am not to blame for everything...and i hope that you can learn to stop those voices too...Hugs for you...((((((((((((((((TIMEO))))))))))))))))))))