I know exactly how you are feeling. I feel that way most of the time but I am old enough now to stop cutting and I have responsibilities that help take some of the focus off my pain. Do you think being gay is the root of this problem? Do you tell people? My nephew who is gay is 16 and he has a group of gay friends that he hangs out with and they are so much fun and talented. I'm pretty sure you would discover your talents if you found a good social group who would accept you for who you are. I think you should first go to a counselor to help you decide how to approach making new friends, discovering talents, and getting closer with your parents. If nothing else, we are here to help guide you. You may contact me personally if you wish.
Smile for me today, cuz I know your beautiful.