Hi, FloatLikeAButterfly. I think your feelings are more common than you think, especially now when you are beginning to start work on becoming an adult yourself.

I would see if you could talk to a counselor about them, get some help and support your mother is not able to give to you and your having to take on the role of supporting her, as a child. See if the school counselor or your medical doctor can get you in a program where you will have better female support and mentoring that will continue for a few years as you mature instead of be "make-shift" like you are attempting with your teachers.