You are certainly dealing with alot. But you are right - staying home and wallowing, as you put it, is not good either. I don't know about you, but when I isolate, my thoughts go way beyond the present and all of a sudden everything, including years into the future, seems in peril and gone haywire. I'm a 58yo college student dealing with several health issues that came up this year that may prevent me from evenr working again, but I'm determined to finish my degree (Psychology). and return to Psych nursing. I am both Bipolar and Borderline and some mornings it takes everything I've got just to crawl out of bed. Especially now with the holidays and a major depression giving me a big dose of the "bah humbugs".

You've got multiple issues going on. Try to separate them and deal with one at a time. The flu won't last forever, thank goodness, and that will help. Try not to give in to the temptation to take extra Tramadol - you don't know how that may be affecting your other meds. That's a dangerous habit to start - I know, I've been there.

Good luck - try to keep at least one positive thought in your mind every day. I know it sounds hokey and hard to do but it really works.