i say that to some, and myself. but no matter how many great hugs, i still feel pain. i hate my past abuse, and i hate my present work to which these people trigger it so. i am tired of feeling used by them all and unwanted. i at times just feel so alone and so much angry. i wish a hug could be enough but it is not. i feel so upset right now with basically being singled out right now. sigh. sorry. idk what to do besides try to say f u c k em.