Is the result of integration the same as not having DID? I listen to my therapist talk about how she thinks. It sounds one denominational. I don't mean that in a bad way. I mean that my thoughts have always been a collection of possibilities. It is not as simple as asking myself, do I want chocolate or vanilla ice cream. Because along with that initial thought comes in a volume of responses like, you can't have ice cream, yes I can, who's paying for it?, i don't know. how much do I have?, why are we having ice cream?, because I want to. And on and on and on. The more complicated the subject the more complicated the thoughts. It's exhausting.