Hi Im 39 and was diagnosed in my late 20's with bipolar disorder just got out of the hospital on monday after not taking my meds for 4 months I got suicidle but Im not now Iam a full time student and that causes alot of stress and Im not sure I will go back next semester.I have begun to notice things that are triggers for me and school is one of them so thinking about giving that up,life would be so much more if I wasnt stressed all the time,I could enjoy it more. I have 3 kids and a wonderful and understanding husband and my older sister don't know what I would do with out them.Life is so hard right now,Im on new meds and starting over it seems like,Iam afraid of going out of the house right now bc I get disoriented when I get under stress and I never know when its going to happen alot of things trigger it right now.My moods are all over the place but never happy allways on the down side of everything.I just want to feel better about who I am and live my life to the fullest possible.My oldest,my daughter, is bipolar to,and my 2 sons have a genetic disorder they are all out of the house now and I miss them so much it hurts everyday I don't get to see them much.Sorry such a long post!!Im glad that Im here just wish someone would tell me how to live with this!!!