Wow I'm so sorry you are feeling this way AND that your dr and receptionist were so cold.

Panic attacks are awful but take it one minute at a time. Do you have a T and have you learned any ways to cope with panic attacks? My phobia is something I encounter far less often than hair cuts and I can't imagine going through that. Can you go in with a very specific idea, maybe even a picture of what you want her to do to fix it? What about it worries you -length, end result? Can you ask her to check in with you as she goes?

I know in this state it's hard to believe it will get better but I was there last year and I'm doing better now. One minute at a time. ((Clouds))