Okay first of all your panic attacks will slow down. This is something off topic but I can relate to you with something so small stressing you out so bad that you start having panic attacks about it. Same with feeling like your doctors don't care. I can never get them on the phone. You'd think they would just take 5 mins out of there day to talk to us and calm us down but no. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. I feel like I'm at a dead end as well. Just keep hope! I haven't eaten or slept right in 3 months. It's going to be okay! You can pm me if you need to talk.