thanks, notz & splitimage. i made the error of working for people who were mean. a coworker had warned me but i was desperate for a job. these people used me for entertainment - treated me badly and then kicked me out. and, even though i worked very hard, their meanness continued with bad references. they are having fun and i am miserable. at one point, i have even checked myself into a mental institution. my T says i am not crazy but the suffering i experienced on the job has left me mentally ill with PTSD and anxiety. my thinking is not clear. i am not even sure if i could work again. i fear experiencing more anti-gay prejudice so much. (the anti-gay prejudice continues even in temp jobs.) i haven't slept well in months.

splitimage, i am going to try your suggestion of sending out 5 resumes a day. thank you for the suggestion - it's a good one. i wish you well with you job hunt. all the best to you, my friends.