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Originally Posted by Jess95
You feel too much of a burden to everyone around you being depressed all the time, and you don't want to have people disappointed with you either. Faking it just makes things soooo much easier.
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That's kind of how I feel. I have family coming for Xmas and yet instead of looking forward to seeing them again, I am beginning to dread it. and not only immediate family but all of my brother's in-laws too. tons of them. people I hardly know anymore. and I just realized why I feel this way--none of them, including my sibs, have any idea or understanding of what I have been through so I know that I will have to put on that 'happy' face again. I really just want to hide at home...or I wish I could just write them a note explaining how I feel and just give it to them..but I am not that brave...yet...