I tried to send a response but it didnt work, so here goes again, maybe it'll duplicate.

Thank you for your advice both of you. I tend to agree that I feel like he's moved on and I'm now stuck in a job we don't really like. He has divorced and doesn't need to support anyone now and can be free of this job. Whereas I still have to work to put clothes on my kids back. He gets to do something he loves while I'm stuck. argh......

But why do I still feel this obsession of infidelity for him? I sometimes think if he has the same feelings for me? Does he fantasize about meeting sometime earlier in life? I think we did sense we liked each other more than just working together once, maybe like 3-4 years ago, but we knew both were untouchable.

I feel a sense of loss and sadness since he's leaving, which I agree has to do w/ the work husband theory. But, I shouldn't feel a sense of attraction or like he's my husband who's abandoned me for greener pastures.

I think I've lost my mind. If I need professional help, do you know what kind of therapist deals with these kind of things?