Princecharming thanks for your encouraging words. I think I am a very deep thinker and it hasnt helped in the process. I even checked up a condition known as pure-o which is mental ocd which I think I kind of have which was making me obssess. I feel I was also taking out my insecurities out on her as I was unlucky in love in the past as in very little experience which was unfair of me to do.