...yeh man!...matey!...thats some serious stuff hey?....and the first thing is to 'validate'....ok' lets see...I am you for a bit...

(and I have similar issues....just not the hairdresser but thats ok)

medication is a gamble as it is...

I took zoloft and nearly fell off a waterfall...
I took xanax and ended up in jail...for a bit..

panic attacks have so much force!...so much conviction....but really it's just a nightmare while awake..

I get them and they crucify me...I cannot move!...

I can't find God or an angel....?..damn it's hard...it's emotionally crippling.

after enough of this I get really down and want to quit!
I get obsessed with ending my life because it's a natural response to the otherworldly pressures upon me.

panic attacks have killed my friends....even while driving...
whoops..flipped the car...

these attacks are pitifull useless and meaningless...
they are worries beyond my comprehension and therefore unhelpful.
to convince myself of this FACT....takes a marvelous desire to overcome....just for my sake

it's ok