I was going to post something similar to this. I admitted to my husband last night after an entire BIG bottle of wine alot of angry hurt feelings he's given me, which I've expressed sober. The only happy day in our entire relationship was when we had our kid. He's gotten sober and doing really well. I don't drink to hide anything in fact it brings it screaming out, he said he was worried and wanted me to slow down on drinking after I had a blubberfest explaining how much hurt he's caused me. What he doesn't get is that I drink because I'm bored, I have no social life, no job, not in school and feel I'm depressed. I sometimes start drinking at 2 o clock you know a glass with lunch, the bottle is gone by the end of the night. I don't feel like I need it or entirely want it, I just like to drink I think maybe I drink to feel if that makes sense..? I dont know but I do agree with slowing down, the 4 am dehydration and pees are no fun either.