double dipping... 
my parents are deceased. at that time all the dysfunction of my siblings reared it's ugly head. to make a very long story short i realized that first a healthy distance from them was needed. i moved away and started all over. i must admit i was terribly sad but knew i needed a new beginning. over time i acquired friends. many had their own family. i got invited to their family occasions. that became an extension of more friends. friends that really cared about me unconditionally. i had created my own "family" with them...over 25 yrs. yes it's difficult at first lexi but build on the friends you find...you'll make new friends stemming from them. take an exercise class, go to the park and strike up a conversation, if you have faith join an active church, help others, etc.
recently i returned to the state my sibs live in. they tried to start up the unhealthy behaviors with me. i've basically done the same as before. emotional distance. i've made a few great friends. i will build anew.
also know that there are many ppl who feel alone too. you may find them and you can give back what they need too.
here's a helpful site with suggestions overcoming aloneness http://www.personal-development.com/...loneliness.htm
many hugs to you, lexi.
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