I hope this doesn't need a trigger. I am anxious about my T's trip and that led to my "what ifs". I want to turn that into something positive. So, what if it were the last time you were going to see or talk to your T--ever, for whatever reason. What would you want her to say? What would you want to say? I'm thinking of realistic things, not way out fantasy stuff. I posted mine in the "Dear T, I need to tell you something" thread but I'll try to copy it to here.

I am serious about wanting to "pretend" it's the last time we will ever see each other. I want to say thank you for putting the collage I made for you on your wall. I can't believe it's there, still. It's the nicest thing you could have done for me. Also for keeping the bear I gave you right there where I can see it all the time. I want to say "I love you" and start crying.

I want you to tell me that I made a difference in your life, and that you will be sad if I die. I want us to hug each other.