(((((SoFragile88)))))

I cannot personally relate to the desire to be accepted by others, but I understand that this is important for most people. My personal opinion is that, if your mother does not accept you, it is not your fault. This is HER issue - it has nothing to do with you.

My experience has been that self-esteem and happiness should not come from other people's love and acceptance - it should come from within. When we love and accept ourselves, we can be content...even if someone else does not appreciate us for who we are! The opinion that matters most is our own.

I am so sorry if I have asked you this before, but are you currently seeing a therapist? These feelings and thoughts you are experiencing, should not be something to go through alone. Talking with a therapist is something that almost anyone can benefit from.

Please keep in mind that we at PC are here to listen, whenever you need to talk and let out any feelings you don't want to keep inside. We are not judgemental here - and we accept people for who they are. That is one of the reasons why this site is so fantastic. Hang in there, okay? Things will get better!