Yeah i have to fight not wanting to run home but i somehow know on my good days that i have the strenghth and ability to make it in my company. If i can then ultimmately i will be moved again hopefully closer to my loved ones.
As for the break up i am trying to learn to love myself and not rely on others for reassurance and love but i get lonely sometimes.
Sometimes i miss the nathan i knew -or thought he was. Everything seemed so easy when i was with him -i could cope with everything.