I gave my T a long letter today expressing how I feel about how much she has helped me. It is our 1 year anniversary and I wanted to finally put into some kind of coherent shape those words that I say occasionally to her. I also gave her a copy of the anthology that was published this month in which something I wrote was dedicated "to my therapist, her name".

So having expressed my feelings so clearly, it would make it slightly easier if it were the last time - no regrets of things unsaid. I gave this all to her as I was leaving because our session was very intense with other matters and I had no time to get into my appreciation for her.

Later on she texted me, "Hi Skysblue, thank you for your heartfelt and wonderfully articulate words. They mean a lot to me. I'm so looking forward to seeing what emerges next [she was referencing our work done in session today] Thanks again and happy anniversary. T"

This is huge. T and I don't email and texts have only been this past couple of months in which I send a few things but she doesn't respond (as our agreement). That she sent a personal message back to me is so deeply meaningful, I could cry. So, if I had to end, this would be the day.