I relate to everything that's been said. I've always used the phrases, "having one of those times" or "I'm in that spot" but it's emotional distress just as been said. I daresay until I received medication for the chemical imbalance, very little changed no matter what I did to get better.

I've leaned on special people in my life and it's been helpful in many ways. The best things I've done for myself though, was getting sober, finding my p-doc and the willingness to work on my mental health with a trained professional.

These are just some of my experiences and may or may not work for you, but food for thought at any rate. I hope things go well for you. Keep posting.