Life seems to be meaningless. I want to cut, so bad. I don't though, until night, when I'm alone. thats when I breakdown, I cry and cut and cry and cut some more. I feel so worthless, and weak. I am officialy on Christmas break from school. yay! I think, school is my escape from home. Nothing bad happens at home just thats where I am alone most of the time. Being away from school should make me less stressed. My school counselor has made me take my hoodie off twice and thank god I was able to hide my scars, I almost told her today though. I feel like I can't go an entire day without cutting. It's just cut cut cut cut suicide cut cut cut..... going through my head its all I can think about. I don't want people to find out, and I have had many close calls recently.